Suprised the heck outta me

I can start this post with a simple statement - I'm very much out of tune with how I see myself and how others perceive me. There were few categories in which I wasn't even close. The people doing the assessing included my ex, my boss, my ex boss, my buddy (with a critical view of myself), my customer service lead, etc. People that have seen me in action anywhere from 2-5 years. I underscored myself entirely in EI by nearly 2 points, on average. My reasoning for picking the scores I had, for example 5.75 in Regulating my own emotions, was because I am near a stone wall with most things but (I believe) you can tell sometimes that I am overloaded when I'm running around like mad to keep up. Apparently I am a stone wall to everyone that has known me for sometime, ranking ~6.7 for regulating my own emotions.

I do not believe the ranking is because I regulate my emotions or use the correct emotions, I believe it's because I disengage from emotions easily... especially in tough situations. I may have received a 6.88 because I could use the appropriate emotion to continue the design concept moving forward, for example, not for necessarily using the correct emotional response for the situation (girl showing signs of sadness, reciprocating with empathy).

As for Influence tactics, I was more so in line with at least the skills I expected to be used more often... but then again there were some exceptions. I was quite surprised that I seemed comfortable with use of Inspirational Appeal. I'm in agreement with more use of Upward Appeal, Coalition Building, and Rational Persuasion... Not really much of a tit for tat guy when it came to work that was supposed to get done anyway, unless it's necessary.

This feedback helps me identify where I need to focus to help move my leadership skills forward/develop my leadership skills. It was obvious that I do not communicate my vision clearly enough, set a good example, push for consensus, or do well in any specific category for Transformation Leadership. I don't get good feedback at all really, the performance reviews sometimes end up really to see how well you did with routine tasks and outlanding goals. They don't really get into development as much as an assessment of this sorts would. I expect to be able to identify what I need to change about myself through this kind of review and understand these categories and their applications a bit better (when I find the key!)